seriously. i wonder how often she gets up there without me knowing?

coming up with a catchy business name
is borderline mission impossible.

i have an idea.
an image.
it's perfect.
but not unique enough.

luckylotus clothing


reasonably marketable
but not unique. and totally taken.

my other working idea
is beyond unique
but not reasonably marketable

it is in french for one
but i love it anyway.

force du coeur clothing

it will to be a working concept
but for now i am back at square one.

b is for brainstorming.

.:just a day in the life:.

new day

woke up.

laid in bed.

watched some of the project runway marathon. the season finale is on tonight {squee!}. i hope althea wins. if not i wouldn't mind if carol hannah wins (her line of dresses are incredible... she is your typical underdog that just might claim the victory) but something tells me that irina might win {grrrr}. her designs are top notch but her personality is as pleasant as gouging your eyes out with a blunt object crusted with salt.

went to work.

even though i don't drink, i enjoyed attending a meeting at work where i learned more about the complexities of wine. if i were not a mormon i could see myself having a love affair with wine and cheeses. but i am a mormon. so no wine. just cheeses.

came home.

the past couple of hours i have been working on a finance project. i came to a few conclusions.

1. love exell. love it.

2. i could actually be enjoying this finance project.

3. feeling a little shocked about all of this.

i haven't been feeling happy

lately.

been feeling:
stress
pressure

reoccurring disappointment.

i drew myself a hot bath
and marinated in my tears

and now i am feeling
a little better
a least to go to sleep
and start a new day.

a heart
so dried up
from the utter
dehydration
of pressure

crunched
into a thousand
tiny pieces
under the treading
footsteps of despair disappointment

left me running
to the only place
of sure and everlasting
hydration.

"The Lord is my Sheperd; no want shall I know. I feed in green pastures; safefolded I rest. He leadeth my soul where the still waters flow. Restores me when wandering, redeemes when oppressed. In the midst of affliction my table is spread. With blessings unmeasured my cup runneth o'er."

right now,

all i want to do is stay in the comforts of my own home. i dread leaving when i have to go to school or work and forget leaving to do anything social.

i never considered myself a home body but i guess lately i sorta am.

truth be told. i guess right now i am feeling scared to put myself out there ... i am sure it is just a phase. for the time being i'll just consider myself introverted.

and this too shall pass.

.:best friend:.

if only you could come everywhere with me.

7:04 a.m.

half dressed
trees standing
against the thalio blues sky

those clouds
were just painted across
and left to dry
above the horizon.

maybe it's me.

too worried about the mundane
maybe too focused up being up so early
against my will

that i almost let a morning like this
slip away to be something
un-enjoyed. and forgotten.